I felt worthless
It was a casual chat with a friend on Skype which sparks the need of me writing this post. He somehow made me came to the realisation of a lot of unnecessary life problems haha. I was 10 when I first cried for results. The only time I dropped out of the "Top 3" in class and got 7th place in class and an overall 15th in the school. You might think it's such a great results but it took me quite some time to accept it. Then I was 13 when I cried while drying the clothes at the backyard. I got a First in class in the first semester but the result changed as the school decided to add the moral results which caused me to drop to 3rd in class. Still, an amazing result. But I cried as my mother called and scolded me for not memorising the "nilai murni and definisi". PMR. I was 15 and cried in front of the whole school because I received 7A and 1B. I didn't want to but as people were comforting me saying it's alright to get a B I cried. The school an